end it, bitch

Have you ever had one of those moments where the inevitable future just crashes into your consciousness, and you can't stop seeing what you'll become for the seven hundredth time, and you can't ever fill the vacuoles that the forthcoming memories left in you?

I just know what I end up in every possible scenario.
Alone.
I just know where I end up in every possible scenario.
Still here. Still as in ages ago.
I just know how I end up in every possible scenario.
By my own hand.
I just know why I end up in every possible scenario.
I never try. Not in one of those stories. I always quit. I always fail. I lose. I lost me.