|the most private thing I'm willing to admit ^^|
KillerI wear it on my face, you know, this fear of hurting myself. I lie awake at night wondering how I would want to die. Then comes this awful premonition - I always end up killing myself. It's on my face, my face, my face, my face. No one wants to deal with a psycho.Killer by Sjemenka
My dad's bipolar, my grandad took his own life, my sister didn't eat for a year.
That boy touched me when I said 'no'. That boy made fun of me, he called me ugly, he called me fat, and he called me ugly, I hurt myself, I hurt so long.
I'm so scared that i'll die restless, that i'll never find peace, that i'll do it before my mom dies so i'll kill her too, me killing myself is in the back of my head even when i think i'm happy.
And I'm doomed if i let anyone in cause then I break the dam, and feel like even worse piece of unlovable shit that wants to die all the time, please, don't love me, it'll kill me, it'll kill me, it'll kill me.
You'll never love me enough. I need so much, cause no one ever gave me anything pure, and I d
settlers in spacePeople settle for ugly sweaters, and stupid summer jobs, Pepsi for Coke, and tofu for ham, and sometimes they settle for a love, not as grand.settlers in space by Sjemenka
I'm okay with itchy wool touching my skin, if you'll help me take it off, and put me to bed with passion.
I'm okay with a shitty job, in the season of hell, if we get to lie in your bed, taking lo-fi/mild-erotica polaroids; naked, sweaty, and happy.
I'm okay with awful drinks, I just want us to share it with utter hatred, together.
I'm okay with B12 deficiency, if we go vegan the wrong way together.
I will not settle for someone who is not you.
UntitledThings I'll have to tell you some day:Untitled by Sjemenka
- I don't feel good when I eat.
- I don't really like being touched.
- I panic, I panic, I panic, I panic.
- I was 6.
- I never planned on making it this far.
- I know where my dad keeps the violent kind of drugs.
- All the stuff I fear are pieces of my mind.
- I was 17.
- "Sleeping Beauty" is my favourite fairy tale.
- I know how to handle a nailclipper, and sharp pencils.
- I almost told a doctor about this.
- I was 25.
- I got scared.
- So will you.
-You're so normal.
- And I'll get bad again.
- Maybe I won't.
- I feel like I can trust you, and it feels like love.